They say that writing these posts will help my disorganized mind ("Schizophrenia." Mental Health America.). Personally, I find that simply writing down how I feel, what happened to me today, what my friends and family think...I don't see how it will help me at all. My doctor says he thinks it is a good "release" for me, a good way to "organize myself."
If it wasn't for my mother I would not be writing this write now.
Sometimes I find myself getting frustrated with the people around me. How can they not see them, hear them, feel them ("Schizophrenia: Signs, Types & Causes.")? I tire of hearing "those aren't real" or "you're seeing things again" or "stop talking about that, you know that they aren't real."
To me they are real ("Schizophrenia." NIMH RSS.). The people I see, the voices I hear, and the fingers crawling on my skin...they are all real to me. But no one really seems to understand that.
My friends get angry at me when I can't seem to put my words together. My mother gets irritated when I forget to do something she's asked of me. My father complains about how expensive my medications are. My best friend doesn't seem to want to be around me anymore.
Sometimes the only thing I really wish for is to be normal.
I think your disorder may be similar to mine. Some people with Split Personality Disorder suffer from Schizophrenia as well. Another similarity is the confusion and feeling alone. People suffering from Split Personality Disorder have issues knowing what they did the day before or understanding what other people think.
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My disorder is also one that deals with people who don't know what's real and what's not. My disorder to diagnose it also Schizophrenia has to be ruled out before being diagnosed as one with Erotomania
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